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There is nothing strange about fear: no matter in what guise it
presents itself it is something with which we are all so familiar that
when a man appears who is without it we are at once enslaved by him. —Henry Miller
It’s amazing what can sneak past one’s consciousness in the midst
of a vacation, under the spell of the tropic sun — an elderly man who must
have been in his seventies, shuffling around the beach with about nine
tiny brass padlocks hanging from his scrotum. He sported no blue Mohawk,
nor was his hair spiked. He appeared a normal old guy who could have
been tottering toward the corner grocery for a newspaper instead of down
the white sand toward the grass hut/bar. Except, of course, he was
naked, as nearly everyone at the resort was.
My wife actually talked to him, but did not ask about the locks.
He told her he was going to get his wife a drink, ply her with alcohol so
she would "give him a little later on."
He added, she said, "At my age, you take it where you can get it."
I can imagine her, smiling back at him, nodding.
I’m trying to figure out my delayed obsession with him and his
locks — something drawing my memory to him, moth to porch light. Never
once did it occur to me to talk to him, inquire. Never, until I was
buckled into my seat on the plane returning home. Too much distraction
probably Too many other naked bodies.
My mind wanders leisurely from the old man and his locks and I
remember what a friend asked me recently regarding the clothing-
optional experience, "Isn’t nudism sexual?" The question was put forth
in a tone of accusation.
And I became, and I am still, defensive. The answer is yes,
although I can’t speak for anyone beyond myself. I know this: As a recent convert
to nudism, having only limited experience to draw upon (five or six visits
to clothing-optional beaches in Hawaii) I’ve yet to witness a blind person
in attendance. And I’m positive that the turquoise ocean caressing my
skin, the sunlight warming places previously unwarmed by sunlight, would feel
equally, if not much more delightful to a sightless person.
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