For Daniel Albright
Somewhere Between Kuwait and Iraq, 2015
They’re everywhere here. Little piles of stones.
One on top the other, three or four or more, precarious.
Teetering. But somehow weathering. Never mind
the thunderstorms, hail the size of fists, angry torrents
of these humid desert winters tearing strange new
channels in this flat, sandy, rocky waste.
Such a strange beauty. Dust in the ether streaking everything
strange. Pinkish, ochers, oranges. How it can throw a glamour
on a tangle of barbed wire. An old bathtub. A blown-out tire
slung over a warped traffic cone. And flying from every snag
or spike a ragged, fading plastic bag. They say that, long ago,
They used to build a little cairn or stack of stones to mark
where something happened—an amazement, some local wonder,
or the way to somewhere else, or perhaps a source of water.
Since all the wars without end or beginning they tell us
it could be land mines. A little pile of rocks a reminder.
Be careful where you set your foot down here. Like most lessons
one you tend to learn too late to do you any good.
You never really loved me. Or perhaps you did.
I always meant to ask. Someday. I wonder
if you ever would have answered. Making the turn
toward Iron Horse where they fire the enormous guns
I remember your last letter. From the other side of the world
you wrote. Told me that my life had more explosions in it
than a well-ordered existence should. I can’t say I disagree.
You were always so much smarter than me.
I looked for you, in your birthday month. Like I always did.
To see how long your hair had grown. Your face always so smooth.
As if the years were loath to touch you. Until suddenly.
They said it was your heart.
I used to send you all the things I’d written. Even
from out here in this desert of the broken places.
You liked them. Mostly. So here’s one last.
From the Petrarch in me, the one you said you couldn’t need.
I wish I could have given you something you wanted.
But here, today, from these salty wastes where the world began
and might just end—just for today, in the face of truth and sense,
every plastic scrap, every stone piled on stone, every tire on tire,
every wild rusty twist of old metal and barbed wire—nothing but
your name, your name, your name flapping in the wind.